Morning:
I didn’t meditate until almost noon. I kept coming up with excuses as to why I couldn’t do it. I told myself that I had to eat first because my stomach was rumbling and it would probably distract me, but I didn’t get a chance to eat until after 10am because I was busy with laundry and chores. My excuse after I ate was that my stomach was full, and I wanted to wait for the food to settle first. I ran out of excuses at about 11:55am, and dragged myself and my ipod itouch (I use the countdown timer on it) to the bedroom. This session was surprisingly a lot easier than my last two. I knew that I didn’t have anything pressing to accomplish and that all my chores had been completed, so I was free to just sit.
I am happy to report that during this session I only opened my eyes once, at the third minute mark. I wanted to open them so badly and had to fight with myself to keep them closed. I daydreamed a little bit, but it was fairly easy to bring myself back to the breathing. At one point I told my mind to shut up because as much as it did not want to do this, I wasn’t getting up and was going to sit for 10 minutes, no matter what. Amazingly my mind listened and the last bit of my meditation went by quickly, and easily.
I don’t know if it is simply because I am returning to Canada soon, but I am feeling more optimistic than usual right now and my to-do list doesn’t appear as daunting as it did yesterday.
I will add the evening’s session to this entry after I have completed it.
Evening:
This evening’s session was uneventful, until the last 12 seconds when Steve walked into the bedroom after his shower and tried to distract me by sticking his naked butt in my face. Since there were only 12 seconds left on my timer, I forgave him.
